Fistful of Colours and a nation full of posers.

What the hell seriously. SG is Sooo damn messed up.
We try to embrace Western culture but keep our Asian roots/values?
We try so hard to be 'original' it becomes a trend.
We want what others have, hence a herd mentality.
Where has individualism gone? Heck has it ever been around?
Not a revolution but a Renaissance! Instead of making others conform to your ideals/beliefs, make people have their own ideas.
Who cares if you agree or not? All the more disagree. How else are we going to be different?
Painful irony about SG is it not?
Collective, conformist gah!!!
Education...
The Singaporean Identity, the great excuse, the blanket that tries to erase all segregation.
But guess what, we are still divided by race, culture, religion. You name it.
So damn it all, this construct.
A Lack of identity from within...
Unable to move on due to the annoying majority. Which mind you everyone has been part of, because we stand out as a nation, not as individuals. Even myself. Ahhh frustration...
I do not need your acceptance.
"I am not who I am."
Think about it.
The bureaucracy is tapped and wired.
Do we truly want to speak out?
Is Speakers' Corner given because there is no fear of someone who can actually cause change?
It is a mockery of our right to speak.
There it is, a physical representation of your right, but are you exercising it?
Sigh...
We have been figured out through and through.

The Silent Man

Creation upon nothing;
The birth of an idea.
No one needs saving
In this dreaded place we appear.

The cat has two antlers,
The dog has webbed feet.
Merlot from the French Cellars -
High, as high and sleepy.

We meet again,
Bows bent and drawn.
And to my disdain
Your hair is ripped and torn.

I walk down the path
Which I take every day,
And I notice soon enough
This small tuff of hay.

Smouldering in the bristling heat -
O' mighty Apollo!
His rays of heat meet
And disintegration soon follows.


Uhh... have fun. Wasted day in art... didn't get anything done. Tomorrow is RockFest! Yay! Performing with this crazy bunch is rocking. Who knows what kind of nonsense will happen tmr?
Meh... but for now homework...

Mug on... Mug on...

Stunned.

Just watched a documentary on A. Crowley..
Really really really shocking. His ideas, actions... EVERYTHING. Geez...
I mean sure I'd like to be able to do whatever I wanted but there is still a need for some order in life.
He was a man really into what he wanted to do. Very much an active participant in his life. Taking control of it. Did he know the consequences? Or did he just not care?...

I'd say I'm a passivist. More or less not really active in anything. Lazing about all day long. Gave up on many things. One of which was religion. Ugh.. Then there was the Ayn Rand period of time. What the hell seriously.. Guess I'm too afraid to do anything really. And yet I'm also quite a daring person, depending on how you look at it.

Ah what the hell.. I have my issues and they are being put on hold for the time being so I can complete my bloody studies. Wonder whats going to happen after that... I'll be free after A's. Shit I better pass my Napfa.

Trying to keep my sanity in a world full of false fronts, and trying to stay true to what I say.

Slept TONS!

Whew.. just officially woke up.. 3pm. Slept last night at 11.30pm.
:\ Just couldn't get down to do any work when I woke up in the morning... so I went back to sleep. I guess I just needed some more rest. I finally got up and I've got a long weekend ahead with tons to do. Homework mainly and catching up. Geez

Well its not too late. I have been paying attention more in class, I've gotten out of my slump working towards being on the ball for lessons. All you need are simple good habits!
Onward to better essays and more maths questions attempted during Maths exam :x

Ah yes, PW.. I got a B. Fairly ok IMO. Its just how you look at it really..
I could emo about the B but meh.. and I pretty much know where I screwed up lol.. It was during the Oral Presentation :x

and what the.. why are the lit teachers hounding me and using the B grade against me...
Look I'm happy I got a B, I never said anything else after that. Why the hell do you keep pestering me about it?!?! Leave me be to do my work, maybe I'll get another good grade for the next lit essay who knows? I can't guarantee that yet =.= But the pressure is not helping..

Ah well off to read history!