Oh! Tis' Foul.

Just woke up awhile ago... 3 am wheee...
I kinda like being awake at inhumane hours. Its peaceful.. I'd like some sunlight with this same silence but pah. Heh oh its cooling too.. *is wearing a jacket*

Sigh. It really is too sudden.
Is this some cruel joke that has gone too far?
Geez..
The pain you feel is unimaginable.
But stay strong and carry on.

Is this really it?

...sigh this is gonna come back and haunt me.
Yes fear the vagueness!

Its time to finish my work! I have been working diligently for two days now...
Nearly done with HISTORY...
Still have ART and LIT and GP OH My!
Hahhaha, I'm doomed lah..
.. self- contradiction is beyond annoying. GAH AHHH!!!

I fancy myself better off in an asylum.
Gone bonkers, just stuck alone in maddening solitude.
When the day comes... if it does... I do sincerely hope that something in my body, especially vital organs would give up and die so that I, would soon follow.

Sigh... it will be over soon... don't be hasty... another 40-60 years more.. to freedom and liberation! TO NOTHINGNESS! or hell. Ugh.
Just got to bullshit my way for that much longer :D
Bullshit gets you places. Hardwork... not as much..
Besides it also depends on where you wanna go.

Once the stone you're crawling under
Gets lifted off your shoulders.
Once the cloud thats raining, over your head
Dissappear.
Its the crashing down of hollow years!

the way things work.

Just be. Let it be oh Let it be.
Do nothing, and be accepting.
How do I live with it?
There is quite a lot that is out of place and wrong...
But its just too comfortable sitting here and doing nothing.
Suffer in silence or suffer alone either way its the same.
Shhh...
Don't speak. Give me silence, give me peace.
The day this voice breaks out,
The Lights will out.
The sky turned dark with no moon no stars,
This is my problem and I am guilty without a doubt.

Nothing Can Be Said.

IRONY!!!

Okay anyway..
As much as I'd love to stay out till late and party.
=\ I can't.

Theres nothing complicated about the system at all.
It is there, it works but makes people feel like shit.
Nothing means anything anymore.
Past, present, future.
What do I want?
Who sent me on this quest anyway?
There is none to blame. No greater being/ thing/ to acuse.
It is all a construct.
NOTHING
Just carry on and wait for sleep.