Much left unsaid..

Hurray for it is the day before a New Year! 31st of December 2008.
Uh huh. I have my own opinion on Time but for the sake of being human I shall comply.

I have a rough idea where I'm headed in life.
This vision was rather deflected at the beginning of this year. With my crazy and impulsive want to be some ship Captain.
I know what I can appreciate and what I can't.
I am unsure of some things... wishing it would just go my way, but heck it probably won't.
as Abel put rather morbidly.. one has to learn to let go. (Think at the edge of a cliff)

A bit disappointed. hm

What am I going to do next year. Will my art take me anywhere? In Art I guess Ideas without Skill equates to crap. However if I can think of a way to show my idea without requiring that much skill. It would work to my advantage.

If I blow up again next year I'm sorry.

I'm only 17, (its just a number but..) I feel like I'm going to miss being alive. (ALREADY? WTF)
Bleah, over dramatic much.

We'll see next year now won't we.
Resolutions... HMM..
As always.. continue to enjoy life my way. I don't mind following sometimes but bah..
Work my butt off. (like last mi...nvm)
Try to keep friendships alive despite much doubt and fear.
Oh and of course improve in guitar and swordsmanship.

ahh there about..
off to bed
- a very tired person..
~yawn...

Worry Over Change..

Ahh I'm paranoid but... meh I wonder whats going to happen by the end of next year..
What will change?
To the World, Singapore, my friends and myself..
I hope it doesn't go South but what can I do?
And that change is inevitable.

Watched Yes Man today.
Something to think about. As always... Sometimes I get annoyed with myself.
It is a good show... great fun hahaha lots of laughter and one HUGE sexual innuendo at the end LOL

I guess we all grow tired of being gloomy and knowing the World is doomed.
Can't run. And I don't know what I can do to change things.. Nothing I suppose unless I become president. Which is very funny yes I know. Whatever la... If people spent more time looking at the situation of the Earth as it is now instead of praying and devoting their lives to some dude in the heavens. I reckon he'd be pleasantly surprised. But thats just me.

and in conclusion this is a mindful rant, that serves only to express my worries. Nothing more.

Green Tea & Weight Loss

Hmm... we'll I'm hoping I made the right link that tea does help you to lose weight...
because it cleanses your body and makes you pee a lot =o

Mmm a pot of tea all to myself...
A pot of tea with no one to drink with...
An excellent pot of green tea nonetheless.

Bah.

The holidays are running away again... and I've yet to start any work at all.
Time is of the essence.
Is still confused.

WATCH IP MUN (EEP MAN) LAWL. DESIRE MOVIE.
- sleep -

Movie Night

Watched a late night...well 9.30pm does that count?
The Day The World Stood Still.
Whee as usual... went to the theatre to decide the movie and the time.
Didn't even know who was the starring actor in the movie until I saw him.
Keanu Reeves.
Matrix dude lol. This time he comes back as an alien. Doh
At the start it felt like Armageddon all over again... Earth was going to get blown up by huge meteorite thing... Bleah so I thought.
Later it turned out to be a movie about the environment, mankind and life itself.
Inspiring, despite the lack of epicness in the movie.
Felt a great sense of satisfaction at the part where the whole world shut down and everyone just stopped.
What would we be doing if we all just stopped the world running?
But I guess thats just me not accepting that that is all there is to life - Identity's we get to pick from a vast list (thought exhaustible); jobs/lifestyles yet again from an exhaustible list.
I conclude as always that the big question that is life can be answered any way one wishes to. There is no right or wrong. Its really up to you.
So if life sucks then I guess it sucks to be you? :\ Heh wtf eh..

Mega drama at Kelgene's too lawl.

Japan!

Yea I'm back.
Food in Japan just surpasses anything I've had so far. Even their pocky has a better taste lol.
Sukiyaki is definately the top food there. Ate the most during that meal... A whole plate of pork cooked in boiling hot soy sauce broth. Yumm..
Eating buddies Ann and Ambrose ftw!

The experience? Not what I expected. Much better! =D Kyoto is beautiful. Buildings, landscape... Sugoi.
And now I feel genuinely interested in learning Japanese language lol... Before it was just the anime crazy and following friends to take the language course. Right now, hmm yea I may just go learn again.

Next year after Alvl's I want to go back to Japan. Along with Leonard and Grace if possible. Though I predict both will pang seh me during the trip because we all want to see different parts of Japan. In which case I really should learn the language so I don't get lost. :x

Ok hoo. And no I am not becoming obsessed. The scenery there is just fantastic. May have to go there and sketch lol >_>

Much Intense Anticipation

Whoooo! Leaving for Japan today!!!

Dire Straits - On Every Street

The sacred and profane
The pleasure and the pain
Somewhere your fingerprints remain concrete
And its your face Im looking for on every street

A ladykiller - regulation tattoo
Silver spurs on his heels
Says - what can I tell you as Im standing next to you
She threw herself under my wheels
Oh its a dangerous road
And a hazardous load
And the fireworks over liberty expode in the heat
And its your face Im looking for on every street

A three-chord symphony crashes into space
The moon is hanging upside down
I dont know why it is Im still on the case
Its a ravenous townAnd you still refuse to be traced
Seems to me such a wasteAnd every victory has a taste thats bittersweet
And its your face Im looking for on every street

>.< really REALLY sad song lawl. Anyhow it pwns so enjoy.

Hmm, got tons of gifts to get la.. Letsee...
Bento Box
Snacks (sweets, cookies etc)
Music CDs
Diary 09'
Some game thing...
A Copy of Shonen Jump (Munees lol...)
Band Scores
Somthing Cute
Something for Deon
Something for Eric
Japanese girls for Jeremy

I guess thats about it :o
Can't wait to see the historical sites in Japan. Mount Fuji omg. Heh... Pictures pictures pictures!!! >.<
Ok have to go pack =.=

Christmas comes early in december this year! Santa WJ is coming to... .ah whatever... :\

Training

Hmm, some goals for the holidays...

Get better with pencil, graphite, charcoal..
and paint the 3 canvases I bought.

So far advice has been given for me to imitate some artworks...
I'm going to come up with my own compositions but try to imitate the style.

Do some revision I guess. Heh. And read more books. That about covers it for now.

Ventis secundis, tene cursum.
Translatori: "Go even against the flow."

The quote that sparked off my anti-establishmentness :\
I'm bringing it back even though I've done away with it because I became obsessed with going against everything. So much so, I just didn't want to do anything at all. Trying to get out of that right now but uhh. Its quite difficult. But at least I'm going for ALL the supplementary lessons. :)

And maybe my thoughts and those of others aren't so different after all. Or at least they can relate or understand. Hmm... Be more open.

Anyhow I really love this quote because it lights up some determination in my... uh spirit/soul/force/chi powers/magic wand? heh anyhow it sort of gave me a purpose but I realised it was quite stupid to just go against everything just because I didn't like it. Yes with more than enough help from my friends telling me about my 'tiredness'.

Every door I ever tried was locked

A line from Lost! by Coldplay. Well this applies mostly to my Dad..

Someone said life is for the takin'
Here I am with my hand out
Waitin for a ride

Lyrics from Goin' Where The Wind Blows by Mr. Big.
Hmm I guess this shows a wrong perception of life. Life is for the taking but one has to go forth and (I'll use this word to make it sound epic) conquer life. One cannot wait for a free ride, doesn't really make the journey yours if you just jump on the bandwagon and follow along is it now?

Music is good; peaceful, calming, helps me to think...
Hm, well I hope I've inspired at least someone whoever reads this

- WJ

0.05% Alcohol and Rum

Ahhh... Abstract painting is... not me. lol. Epic fail hoo! Cept for some stuff I thought was pleasant to look at. Yay art class won't be so small. People promoted. People who are more indifferent promoted lol. Yes yes, JM if you're reading this is why lol.
Lighter atmosphere to the class is better. Cos theres gonna be mega whining. And Mega irritating stuff. Oh yea and MISS YEO IS LEAVING ;( *tear*
Anyway... that aside the art teacher tht is teaching us now is mega nice. But we're not exactly showing appreciation, some were even quite rude to him.. wtf sia...

Oh history was hilarious. Only two people passed the test... So almost everyone has to go take a re-test tmr lawl.


Heh some facebook joke video by collegehumour. Brilliant people. :D

Ok tired lol side tracked to playing guitar...

Poem - Alone on the Train

Endless contemplation
While waiting at the station.

Two minutes before arrival.
The eager crowd park at the doors,
Their lives run at a race-pace.

Esteemed by suits and leather shoes.
Ignorantly armed with handheld of choice:
PSP, iphone, Nintendo DS

I wonder why there are fewer people,
And yet less space.

Inanimates on board.
It is quite laughable;
This cold silence.

One can only hope to feel the warmth,
From the - "life-form"
Spaced one seat away.

In a dream state
And lost in their own realms.

Command Input:
Give up seat to pregnant lady.
The signs tell them what to do.

An infant breaks the silence,
Crying out against the boredom.
Only to reiceve chilling stares.

Where has the Creator gone?
I send these things back with disapproval.


Written for a Literature assignment. Turned out alright although there isn't a recognisable form and no rhyme either. :\
A poem on a train ride.

Goin' Where The Wind Blows

Someone said life is for the takin'
Here I am with my hand out, waiting for a ride
I've been living on my great expectations
What good is it when I'm stranded here and the world just passes by
Where are the signs to help me get out of this place

CHORUS:
If I should stumble on my moment in time how will I know
If the story's written on my face does it show
Am I strong enough to walk on water
Smart enough to come in out of the rain
Or am i a fool going where the wind blows

Here I sit halfway to somewhere
Thinking about what's in front of me and what I left behind
On my own its supposed to be so easy
Is this what I've been after or have I lost my mind
Maybe this is my chance and its coming to take me away

CHORUS

Bridge:
Here I am what can make it through the world
Taking up space society's shadow
Make room for me, make room for me, make room for me

CHORUS

A great song by Mr. Big. At least the melodies during the song really fit the lyrics :\ I got to learn this song! How does one know if at some point in life, that sole moment will make the biggest change? How if you miss it? Uncertainties and wanting to run away from everything. Bottomline rocking song. Enjoy, who/whatever.

Flight of the Conchords - I'm Not Crying

What an epic fail way to convince someone you're not sad lol. This is hilarious. :x

Thoughts from The Sound of Muzak and others

The music of the future
Will not entertain
It's only meant to repress
And neutralise your brain

It is true that music has degraded to a point where there are repetitive lyrics, for example an entire song and just be on one word like Umbrella. :\ It sounds almost trance like when I hear a friend sing that "Please don't stop the music...music" song =.= So this song by Porcupine Tree - The Sound of Muzak - is made up of a single constant riff at the beginning to express that repetitive trance-likeness of the music of today. Its the age of pop. Music doesn't satisfy like the oldies. Wonder why people will forever love oldies but forget the lyrics to that pop song or rap song they were so into about a month ago?

Now the sound of music
Comes in silver pills
Engineered to suit you
Building cheaper thrills

Almost like a drug music of today is slowly ruining the minds of people and its cheap music because you can't see much effort or time spent put into make that music. What do people go for now? Do people go for band concerts because the music is good? Or is it because the frontman is cute? (Generally for girls [I'm sorry for the stereotype but its not my fault you just fit it perfectly] and some guys) I wouldn't say that rock, or metal or progressive music that I listen to is the BEST kind of music but hey, from the music I get hardwork, passion and a good taste in sound. As of today I only know ONE, girl who enjoys my kind of music. (And yea Ok I don't know that many but still.)

Oh yea one more thing. (Lawl Uncle moment from Jackie Chan Adventures)
Equal rights between male and female? Go grow a dick. Geez. Yes I have to put it that crudely.
On one end you hear equal rights for women. On the other, men must do this this this and this because you are men. Men are supposed to protect women in every sense of the word (Paula quote on the spot) =.= I am tired, are women so entirely helpless that they need protecting? I think not. But, no go on and pretend to be completely useless beings that you are. Men and women are essentially different alright. It makes sense I guess that men do more (not all) manual labor because our musculature is greater than a woman's. Ah whatever la. I guess males are not perfect either, we do have our own shortcomings. But as I see it, still better than women. HA HA HA.

In other news. 19th October 2008. Dry Lake was formed.
While we were walking to the bus stop...
WJ said: What about water pudding *points to one*
Rahman said: Dry lake
Jeremy and WJ said: Hey that sounds cool.

And so, it has begun. *Inject epic-moment-feeling-inducing drug*

Batter My Heart

Batter my heart, three-personed God; for you
As yet but knock, breathe, shine, and seek to mend.
That I may rise and stand, o'erthrow me and bend
Your force to break, blow, burn, and make me new.
I, like an usurped town, to another due,
Labor to admit you, but, oh, to no end;
Reason, your viceroy in me, me should defend,
But is captived and proves weak or untrue.

Yet dearly I love you and would be loved fain,
But am betrothed unto your enemy:
Divorce me, untie or break that knot again,
Take me to you, imprison me, for I,
Except you enthrall me, never shall be free,
Nor ever chaste, except you ravish me.

by John Donne [1573-1631]

Is it me or am I very lucky?

Yet again another round of exams which I managed to scrape through. I got about 39 for Promos alone. It will fly when I get my total points. Is it because I keep worrying over the exam results so much that when I actually get them I feel so relieved because I passed. :\
Not the first time this happened =.= Olvls for Lit oso. Panic panic then... A1
Doh.. wtf lah. Must work harder!
Lit overall grade is a C.. Not extremely happy because I got it from cheap CA marks. Still got an E for Promos. Bleah.
Anyhow, life is moving on... Soon all the commitments and promises I made for the band and training and exericise (YES Laugh whatever.) will come and haunt me. Noooo...
Japan trip is gonna be bursting. Most probably spend all my money on food and a few clothes..
like 99% Food... Yea!
Ms Yeo is gonna buy me sake! Meh, I doubt it though. And no I am not motivated by Sake or any alcohol.
Hm, two totally different genres... Progressive Rock/Metal and JRock. Wtf am I doing man its quite laughable lol... Oh YEA Disguisement <<< I so created this word. =x
Ninja Gaiden 2. Just desiring On the SPOT
Kelgene is back YAY!
Quite glad people promoted. Although Derek might have some trouble... and Munees also.

23rd! There's Hope! Onward!

I'll end off with... Guitar Ensemble just can't make it. Teaching the same old things will never get you anywhere. Who cares if you can play Old Swansea Town perfectly. Or even if you can play one of any songs from any of your favourite bands. You make your own music and thats getting somewhere. The way I see it, its just too rigid, just like the bloody education system.
Let go of these boundaries, they only hold you back...

Pure Narcotic

You keep me waiting
You keep me alone in a room full of friends
You keep me hating
You keep me listening to the Bends

No amount of pointless days
Can make this go away

You have me on my knees
You have me listless and deranged
You have me in your pocket
You have me distant and estranged

No narcotics in my brain
Can make this go away

I'm sorry that, I'm sorry that I'm not like you
I worry that I don't act the way you'd like me to

You find me wanting
You find me bloodless but inspired
You find me out
You find me hallucinating fire

No narcotics in my brain
Can make this go away

Have we ever been here before?
Running headlong at the floor
Leave me dreaming on a railway track
Wrap me up and send me back

Porcupine Tree from their Stupid Dream album.

You Not Me

Being round you is driving me crazy
Watching you run is making me lazy
You're trying to buy a place in my head
Telling me lines I've already read
Speaking my name to try to confuse me
Say it again youre starting to lose me

Thats alright I'm okay
It happens every single day
Its all the same
But I'm not blind

Its all about you not me
Its all about the things
That you're expecting me to be
Theres not enough time to live
And all that you're expecting me to give

Its all about you not me
Its all about you not me

You're building my prison brick by brick
Eating your words is making me sick
You get what you want
Cause nothing is sacred
You're reading my mind
And leaving me naked
You say I gotta give before I receive it
One of these days I'll believe it.

Its all about you not me
Its all about the things
That you're expecting me to be
Theres not enough time to live
And all that you're expecting me to give

Its all about you not me
Its all about you not me

Thats alright I'm okay
It happens every single day
Its all the same
But I'm not blind

Its all about you not me
Its all about the things
That you're expecting me to be
Theres not enough time to live
And all that you're expecting me to give

Its all about you not me
Its all about you not me
Its all about you not me

by Dream Theater

Hmm, suddenly reminded of this song. Got really ticked off listening to this song because it made me realise something back then lol.. Live for yourself I guess not for others' expectations of you. But of course don't make others do things for your own sake. And then again, there has to be some selfishness in everyone... :\

Dull days.

Bleah, South East Asian History is boring to the MAX.
Can't even begin to start reading and I fall asleep.
Got too damned fed up, plus my dad is going about his usual stubborn nonsense that just makes me want to strangle him. Not only is he mad. He insists that my brother be taught his way, which is outdated. Its not about sticking to tradition (not that I think tradition is wonderful), its a mutating syllabus la.
Zzz my brother is probably going to normal and I can't help him.
Anyhow I would have lost my cool so I went for a jog which eventually degraded into a walk and eventually I sat down at a bench around the middle of Toa Payoh to Bishan.
Saw this damn cool dad who apparently made this cart thingy, bicycle attached to it and it was dragging another cart behind. His daughter was sitting in the back. Damn cool la.
If I didn't have the company of my friends I'd be so lifeless.

I'm tired and I'm so alone

Two Fusiliers

And have we done with War at last?

Well, we're been lucky devils both,

And there's no need of pledge or oath

To bind our lovely friendship fast,

By firmer stuff

Close bound enough.

By wire and wood and stake we're bound,

By Fricourt and by Festubert,

By whipping rain, by the sun's glare,

By all the misery and loud sound,

By a Spring day,

By Picard clay.

Show me the two so closely bound

As we, by the wet bond of blood,
By friendship, blossoming from mud,

By Death: we faced him, and we found

Beauty in Death,

In dead men breath.

by ROBERT GRAVES

Day 02

T'was a tragic day.

Countless brain cells died at the frontlines,

And we mourn for their loss.

=\

Day 03

(today) Bleah, lit and history together the horrors. Thank Jupiter is just one paper a day from now on. =D

...and if I don't promote... -.-

Must have a positive outlook.

HAHA Deon!

War has come...

Dear War Diary of 7 days,

Today the SRJC J1 Cohort begin a week long campaign 'gainst the attack of The Freshly-printed-exam-scripts.

Hahaha, its always good to joke about these things because it makes it more bearable...and funny :D

Abel started the day off with Dulce Et Decorum Est Pro Patria Mori. (brings back memories)
Bent double... Knock-kneed. Heh heh.
Indeed for today I spent half the time Abel did on the battlefield for I do not habour any hatred for Econs.
We're probably going to come out of this bloodshod.. Faces hanging like a devil's sick of sin.. With vile incurable sores..blah blah blah lol..

Tomorrow we get up early and attack the Communists camp.. But we do our killing after breakfast so at about 8am yea? Known for their massive numbers... hard-to-remember phrases and words as well as outdated moral values.. Its going to be a tough fight. I fear I will lose this battle.

And of course after that is the long waited Abacus Skirmish. Which, to sum it up, the Graphic Calculators are being overthrown. (Oh it would be hellah funny if someone brought an abacus into the exam hall.)

- WJ